my best shot Monday

 

not really A best shot, but she has been waiting for snow all winter, the dusting we got was fun for footprints!

rice and beans, beans and rice

So, my brother-in-law gave me the best advice i've heard all year....and yes, i know the years just begun. But its his no fail get out of debt, get rich quick advice.
Advice i MUST heed if i ever want my children to have ANY kind of secure future. (oh, like i never thought of that, thanks asshole)
Its called rice and beans, beans and rice. Basically if it aint rice and beans you dont buy it! Did i mention he was scarfing down the pizza we ordered and paid for? I almost told him i was less worried about my childrens future, but was becoming increasingly more worried about their dinner, which was quickly disappearing!
This *almost beats his bit of wisdom a month or so before Finn was born. In order to avoid my 4th epidural, i must just concentrate harder on an object in the room and think my way through the pain. Again, why didnt i think of that?

p.s his wife had an epidural during the birth of their 1st child, a few months later!

 

 


Finn, after a nap.

wrong door

I have the srtongest feeling lately that somewhere along the way i opened the wrong door and am not where i am supposed to be. I mean..living conditions are not ideal and its partly that.But i also feel pulled in the opposite direction that we seem to be headed. Yet i feel powerless to change anything. Or I'm just so very afraid, because when i do start to head in the direction of my heart, well, lets just say awhole lot of people are going to be in my face asking a whole lot of questions. I already get so many, and am judged on so many levels.
I really need strength to tell those that love us that i dont want to life my (our) lives the way they think we should.

New Year, New Me

Happy 2007! This year i really am following my longgg list of resolutions! first and foremost, im finding me under all the fat and sweat pants ive managed to pile on all of 2006.